My Heart, My Soul, My Life

I had such a TERRIBLE day--so glad I didn't take the first four or five months of being zoned out for granted. Now I have to decide what I want to do and what I really want to do is WRITE. I also want to get out in the world and experience a bit but I feel so very self-conscious right now and all's I want to do is hide out. Which is making me depressed. Plus I miss my little boy, it's like a knife to the heart, even when (not IF) I'm eventually with him, I'll never forget the pain, the pain, the never-ending excruciating pain.

I guess the time has come where, dearest readers, I must tell you the whole story..................